Let It Land, It’s been a long time since I’ve posted on here....

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted on here. I’ve been through so much with my family these past few months a roller coaster of emotions, but that was just a kiddie sized coaster compared to the next year ahead. So much worry, pain and hurt..I can’t help but wake up scared each day. Scared of losing you! This wait is the worst thing I’ve experienced in a while because all that keeps flashing through my head are the images of how nan deteriorated slowly and painfully. I hope the doctors are wrong and it’s not as bad as they are expecting it to be. I don’t want to lose you!! :(